An Inspirational Living...

Or is it really?...What's with the inspire and stuff?...Why do we need them in life?...Or why do we need them to live?...

And right now...I am not inspired...why oh why??...That is not the question though..it is more of..."what am I gonna do now?"...I have lost all hope in life...I have crushed all dreams worth chasing...and for what its worth...I have broke down and cried...oh gosh!!!

Its a sad thing...happening right before my own eyes...something that I could've avoid it but to no avail...maybe I did not try hard enough...or maybe...I failed because I forced myself too hard to believe in it....which is which??

I used to love writing...describing my experience...the colourfulness of life....but now...my heart disheartened...no specific reason...but I just strayed...a drifter by the shore and trying hard to stay safe...

I lose focus...I lose interest...in life...in world...in everyone..in work...an worst of all...in myself...I stop believing....

Help me please...forgive me for all my sins...I am who I am...am not perfect and made tonnes of milions of mistakes in life....wished I could turn back time...to the time I was better off before...as a person...as ME...